Jaded

Most days is not a good day for me. I used to be an optimistic person. Always looking for the bright side. The rainbow after the rain. I guess the places especially the most recent, and some people you meet along the way break you down. I know what you might be thinking. That if you are strong enough then you'll overcome anything that tries to bring you down. I used to be a firm believer in that. Not so much anymore. On some rare good days, maybe. It's just that when the same shit keeps happening over and over and the serenity prayer stops working... you get jaded.